Martha Olawale

“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:13

Waking up each morning throws us into a spinning circle of choices and a frenzy to make each second of the twenty hours of the day count. We often thrust ourselves into a million things and leave God on the back burner, locked in a corner. We live on a diet of intimacy with the Holy Spirit instead of dwelling in His presence. We only peep into the little room we’ve created for God when we need Him but then shut the door on Him as soon as we feel we are up to the task.

As I grow in age and walk with God, I learn more about my limitations and that their presence doesn’t define me; they grow me. All of them are simply the catalysts that thrust me deeper into my dependence on God. I’m learning that my abilities are nothing but scraps from the abundance of grace I inherited in my redemptive nature. As my limitations call out, God’s grace answers and reduce the mountain before me to rubble.

When we are resilient in pursuing God, we enjoy all He has freely given us through salvation despite the bumps along the way. Our limitations will not deprive us but draw us closer to the heart and always-ready warm embrace of our Father. While deep calls to deep (Psalm 42:7), the treasures beyond the reef of self-reliance are worth every dig, and the unending road of adventures with Christ is worth threading.

I seek a depth, a place designed by the statutes of Heaven, where God is constant in my thoughts, actions, and reactions. A place where He is the rhythm in each note of my life song, and His heart is the source through which my mind pumps every drop of blood. I long for that depth that takes me beyond the shores of doubt and anxiety to ride on the waves of God's glory. I am a depth seeker, and the treasures I seek lie in Christ alone.